transitions

Riding on the train gives you a lot of time to think and process, that is for sure.  I was just thinking about all of the transitions and changing times ahead of me.  This whole no-school-done-with-college thing is a strange one.

The Diaspora is happening. 

Molly just got a job at Colorado Children’s Hospital (yippee!), which is thoroughly exciting but will be a big change in my life.  We’ve lived right in the same house for the last two years and in very close proximity for the past four.  My dear friend Laura is getting MARRIED and moving to Utah – whyyyyy so far?!  Sicca Moniqua is headed to Stanford for grad school.  Siri is teaching English in Thailand for a year.  Sarah is going to SoCal for grad school.  My friends in Canada still live so far away in Canada (weird…).  Chelsea is going to Syracuse, NY for her dietetics internship.  Jsalls is already back home in MD.  Alyssa moved back to Cali.  Amanda is going to grad school in Cali.  DJers is getting married and living in Texas.  Seriously, the list goes on.  And my plan is to move back to PDX (yay for joining Marge), but thus leaving Michaela, Melissa, Melissa, Heidi (the remaining 515 lovelies).  Phew.  Just writing/re-reading that is exhausting to me.

My plan to move back to Portland is exciting, but will also be another big transition for me.  I do trust that the LORD will provide in terms of a job, new/old friend connections.  I just really have no idea how it will all pan out.  So is how life goes, unpredictable. 

My heart is definitely gearing up for sadness and is already beginning to ache at the upcoming changes.  But this is how life rolls, and I believe that it is in these transitions that we draw near to the LORD and learn how to rely and depend upon Him even more.  Life is just a series of transitions and changes lined up one after the other.

I also think of the inevitable changes coming for our family – grandparents are aging, kids are going to college, my Grandpa is suffering from Alzheimer’s, which will only continue to get worse, such is the nature of the disease.  These are not easy things “to look forward to”, but we know that the LORD is good and sovereign.  He has a plan even when we cannot see it, and His ways and plans are far superior to ours.  I think about the recent death of my Gram, just one moth ago.  That was not planned or expected, but to happened.  Despite my shock and anguish, my questions and sorrow, I will thank the LORD for His many blessings and provisions, and for the 21, almost 22, years I got to spend with my Gram.  Part of this life is that we don’t get to know all of the answers and sometimes we may only have questions – a lot of them!  And that is ok.  It is here that we learn and grow.  I hope that as these next few months/years of change and transition begin that I will rely and wait on the LORD.

Psalm 130:5

“I wait for the LORD, my soul waits,

And in His word I put my hope.”